Some times I feel like I messed up too many times and that I should just drop anything and start again completely. Nobody really knows me and I don't really matter to anybody outside of my family so it's as easy as flipping a switch. Some times I just wonder; if I start again could the same me turn out differently, or would my knowledge make it worth while?
There are some people I know it would be better if I hadn't met, some people who probably deserve to have more proactive friends than that of myself, and some people who are straight up worse off from me having simply encountered them.
I don't even want to know what it is that I'm clingi